We just happened to wear the same shade of colour. THATS IT. (great minds think alike, remember?)

But seriously that’s where it stops. There’s nothing going on.

Seriously, I am tired of guessing. Or wondering, Or wishing, Or THINKING.

For once why can’t THEY/HE guess, wonder, wish or think about me instead??

I don’t want to be made to feel like I have a competitor. Yes, That’s what I feel like.

Unfortunately, I have no competition to offer him. What to do, I am transparent that way. I don’t play mind games. If that makes me too easy for them then it’s their loss. For I have more to offer than mind games.

COmpetition doesn’t spur me on. It turns me off.

Why? Coz’ it makes me feel like I’m unimportant and nothing more than just THAT. So rather than spurring me on, it turns me off.

I am not the chaser. I am NEVER the chaser. No, it’s not my ego. It’s my self worth. And it’s also my dignity. Not to mention the dignity of my family. Wherever I go, I carry with me my family name. And THAT in itself is a huge responsibility that I do not take lightly.

I want to be chased. To be wooed. To be made to feel important.. Can???

And I am not seeing it. Not at all.

Hence I give up. I give up all notions and ideas. I know I have said it before only to go ‘Gaga’ again. But I think this time I shall stick with it this time.

I’m tired.

*Isn’t that what YOU want anyways. Coz’ it certainly seems like it. Just goes to show I can never be pally-wally with a guy. I’m a girl’s kinda girl. Guys are just too complicated for me.