I am in a pissy mood and it stems from last nite when my snooty, irritating bro irritates me, yet again with his irritating manner. He just doesn’t know how to just sit still or be sensitively quiet for a little bit! Maybe I was having the case of the PMS but seriously i was not in a mood where you should trifle with me and he just blatantly crossed the line with me. Like I told my friend when i messaged her, If he went missing last nite or even died, i don’t think i’ll be the least worried. That was how pissed i was. I mean like seriously, I am the ELDER sister and yet i’m not accorded with the same degree of respect that an elder sis should be getting. What? Just becoz’ he’s THE SON, he can get away with bein’ a jerk is it??!! No Way! Not while i’m alive! I would still be the 1st born of the family and that means i’m the oldest. And it doesn’t mean that just because he’s the son he would be better than me in certain matters coz’ he won’t, and i’m sure of that! I am the smart one in the family. I’m the one that eventhgh i do things that are rash, i would actually think it thru unlike HIM.
Seriously, not being the favoured one with anyone really sucks but being treated unfairly by your own family sucks even more.
Did i cry about it? Yes, i unashamedly did. Like i always do. Unbeknown to others, i do alot of crying behind the closed doors of my room. I am known as the loud, confident one but in reality i don’t think they got the right picture of me @ all. Even i don’t know me. I’m still trying to find out, but it’s not easy.
To make my black mood even blacker is another stoopid Cina mainland B!*^@$ who is just soooooo kiasu to get into an EMPTY train that she potong Q and just planted herself next to me and tried to put herself infront of me! The nerve! Being pissed makes me vindictive, and for a bit there i forgot i was fasting and just tried my darnest to push her back to her side and trying to make sure she doesn’t get seats before i do. But that Fucker actualy got thru the door 1st! and when she was in the train she looked like some kuda gila looking left right, left right for a seat like her butt on fire and sitting is her only salvation! When she got a seat and saw me opposite her, Me, the one she PUSHED, she buat muka sotong and started reading the bloody Today paper! Bitch rite!??! Arsehole, moronic mainland Cina! Even their own kind, the Sporean Cina do not like them all that much coz’ they’re a bunch of loud, uncouth, non english speaking bunch of Sentols! They are like the Cina version of Siti Nurhaliza. Bodoh tak tau cakap English but don’t want to start learning it and expect people to know their bloody language. Siow!!!
I wish that stoooopid lady the worse of days today for i am not happy that i started my day being ruined by her presence! Arsehole…..